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The landscape here in Utah (Moab region) is extremely gorgeous. Being able to drive a stock Touareg up and down canyons and across 34-degree inclines is a hell of a lot of fun. Chillin with journalists, whee.
My love to everyone from Utah. Be back in O-town Sunday night.
From Wikipedia:
As of June 27, 2007, CTVglobemedia-owned networks CTV and The Comedy Network have exclusive Canadian rights to the entire Comedy Central library of past and current programs on all electronic platforms, under a multi-year agreement with Viacom, expanding on past programming agreements between the two channels. Canadian users attempting to visit Comedy Central websites will also be redirected to The Comedy Network's website. The Canadian channel will keep its own brand name, but the agreement is otherwise very similar to the earlier CTV/Viacom deal for MTV in Canada.As of October 17, 2007, Canadian IP addresses attempting to link to comedycentral.com are greeted with a web page claiming that "some jerk" has blocked ComedyCentral.com, and it redirects you to the Comedy Network home page. Some direct links to Comedy Central shows still work though.
I took a screenshot of it: Fuckwads
This is ridiculous. The ideal of "free information" is losing to digital rights battles everywhere. Bleh. Granted, I like the Comedy Network's streaming quality more, but it's a pain in the ass to navigate to find the only things I care to watch on their website... Daily Show and Colbert Report.
I'd like to make something clear. I drink alone at times. It helps me forget. In fact, at times isn't even accurate. On a rare day when people I know aren't availible to go out, usually I've a drink in hand. A glass of wine every night is supposed to be healthy and all.
But sometimes I don't want to drink. And sometimes I wish I could still forget just as well. I've spent the last several hours half studying... half watching boston legal, and all the while folding orgami stars. I've never done that before... folding origami stars. It's something to occupy your mind for hours, shearing long strips of paper from the piles of ads I get in the mail, folding perfect pentagons over and over again...
Why does it feel like I'm losing everyone? Cousins once so close they were as my self, old dear friends I haven't seen in ages, friends who have passed away...
Oh yeah, and those once dear I've slighted somehow.
Guilt is a terrible thing. I've always maintained that a good relationship, romantic or as a friendship, needs the dedication and understanding of both parties. I've dropped the ball on friendships in the last year, some more than others. I can't offer any excuses but to say my life has been fucked lately.
But in some cases, I can't help but feel my guilt is completely irrational. I act as though I am the only one at fault, when I know that I'm not. When I know that both parties have failed in understanding and commitment.
It should provide some sort of satisfaction, but it doesn't. It just hurts all the more. Especially when I think that those friendships may be gone forever, and there's nothing I can do about it.
Hell, forget the most intimate of friendships (let alone romantic relationships, god what a mess). Despite my philanderous nature I can't even bring myself to have casual sex lately. It may seem trivial, but when I turn down sex from gorgeous women, something is fucking wrong.
So yes, I occupy my mind with other things. Sometimes it's school, sometimes it's folding origami stars. A lot of times it's devoting myself to my photography, and yes, I'm a damned good photographer because of it.
And yes, sometimes I drink to excess. It's just a really, really good way to forget.
As much as it hurts, it even means distancing myself emotionally from friends I know that can't handle the fact that I'm a fucked up person at times, and leaving only those I trust implicitly or those I hang out with without burdening each other with our seperate problems. I am always open to people unburdening their woes on me, but sometimes I have my own problems and can't listen.
I've got a slew of problems, but some... I trust very few people with. In fact I've only trusted one person with them so far and I'm not likely to tell anyone else of them ever.
If you can accept me with all my flaws and accept the fact that I will be there for you when I can, which isn't always, then we're cool.
There is a bright side to all of this, however. I now have a growing pile of colourful paper stars on my desk.
Current Listening: The Frames
Yes, I already posted this on Facebook, so if you've seen it, don't read it. But holy flippin' hell!
You are looking at not just some tarted up GTI out of the fevered dreams of a ricer with a fetish for carbon fiber.
VW has gone completely insane. Completely. This is a custom made GTI with a bi-turbo W12 engine. Yes, they unveiled it a while ago, but whilst reading up on what would be new on Top Gear this year, this came up.
I have to admit, it looks brilliant. Reminds me of the new Audi R8... which... may just be a little more brilliant. But by god, a hatchback with 650 horsepower? Comon now! That's just insanity...
Not to say I wouldn't want one.
On a completely different note: Boston Legal is awesome. Nuff' said.
Image from: Autoblog
