sometimesithinkimisshersoisleepwithsomeoneelse
This is based off a thoguht and an entry I had put into my journal earlier in the week as I was on vacation.
Yes, I'm back now, sort of. I'm back in Ottawa, due back in TO tomorrow.
The title about describes my 'love life' as it were, though love has very little to do with anything. 'Her' might as well be... well... you decide, I haven't yet.
It's odd. Somewhere along the line people's view of me changed from the gawky geeky kid who could barely tell if another person was interested (and alas, I do not believe that many people were)... to the Asian fuckbuddy.
So it's not that bad, and I bring it upon myself most of the time... I shouldn't complain. It's just odd, since I seem to remember a time when people liked me for much less ridiculous reasons. And some people still do... thank god.
Still, I won't forget some of the things I've heard people say. I first noticed, I guess, sometime in San Diego, though I'm aware that it had been going on for much longer.
"I haven't had Asian in a long time... can we keep him?"
And it only picked up. I was introduced to people as Anna's 'Canadian ex-lover'... Irony being of course that I never slept with Anna even once in the time that we were together... despite having loved her.
The other little bit of irony being that most of this happened as I was under that pesky little vow.
Though I daresay I would've broken it with sour regrets had I been less clear in the head.
It persists even now... it's kind of bothersome. I even had a lady who must've been over 70 hit on me the other day. That... was a very odd experience. I'm glad when I meet people that don't just want to fuck my brains out... and it's funny because my closest friends, besides Seth and my Ottawa family, are my ex-girlfriends...
I'm pretty sure neither of the two that really mattered in my life want to open those old wounds again...
... and thank Moses.
By the way, everyone should see Chris Landreth's Ryan.