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August 29, 2005

flamingredhairedsocialists

I really don't keep up with German news nearly enough, despite having friends there and all.

Apparently, I should. There was an article in the Star today about Julia Bonk, a short little article tucked away on A8, but a red-haired socialist does not so easily escape my attention.

julia_bonk.jpg

Not so easily at all.

Especially with a shirt like that. =) Nor a name like that. Though I'm sure it's not nearly as funny to anyone but English-speakers.

A 19-year old MP? That's pretty crazy. That sort of thing should happen more often here in Canada. Kids would pay more attention. That would be a good thing.

On another socialist sidenote, I think I may have a solution to one of the biggest problems facing a future socialist world... that makes me happy. And it has nothing to do with putting more hot German girls at the forefront of our 'image'. =)

Picture found here: http://www.hebig.com/archives/002574.shtml

August 28, 2005

bliggidyblog

StereoMike-Everybody get Gmail and google talk says:
bliggidy blog
It's like he's Simon and I'm Garfunkel says:
blogging is t3h 4w3s0m3
StereoMike-Everybody get Gmail and google talk says:
bah

Heh. I'm back from my vacation for real now, back in Toronto (or at least the GTA... some people get peevy when I say I'm in Toronto when I'm clearly in the 'burbs)

I'll probably write something later when I have less to do. I just got back this morning and I already had to shoot off to do some shopping... (I do loathe shopping most of the time) but it's my little brother's birthday in a few days and I really needed to get him something.

So life is pretty good as of late. Besides my normal griping, which regular readers here are probably really tired of by now... I really have very little to complain about.

I just got back from vacation, had some of the best seafood *ever*... settled nicely into my new place in Ottawa (though not completely)... and I've gotten a lot of my past settled and out of the way.

It's all good.

Plus I've a steady volunteering thing going with the Charlatan, though I'm not particularly good at it... (neh)

My photography is slacking. I've been finding I'm less capable of creating the perfect composition in most cases nowadays... and it's really bugging me. Perhaps I need to go back to the basics and play with my XE-7 SLR for a little while again.

Real disappointed in myself in the lack of foresight in leaving my polarizing filter on my desk when I went out to New Brunswick. Sad sad thing.

I have a dinner to cook and such. I shall write more later, if I have the time.

sometimesithinkimisshersoisleepwithsomeoneelse

This is based off a thoguht and an entry I had put into my journal earlier in the week as I was on vacation.

Yes, I'm back now, sort of. I'm back in Ottawa, due back in TO tomorrow.

The title about describes my 'love life' as it were, though love has very little to do with anything. 'Her' might as well be... well... you decide, I haven't yet.

It's odd. Somewhere along the line people's view of me changed from the gawky geeky kid who could barely tell if another person was interested (and alas, I do not believe that many people were)... to the Asian fuckbuddy.

So it's not that bad, and I bring it upon myself most of the time... I shouldn't complain. It's just odd, since I seem to remember a time when people liked me for much less ridiculous reasons. And some people still do... thank god.

Still, I won't forget some of the things I've heard people say. I first noticed, I guess, sometime in San Diego, though I'm aware that it had been going on for much longer.

"I haven't had Asian in a long time... can we keep him?"

And it only picked up. I was introduced to people as Anna's 'Canadian ex-lover'... Irony being of course that I never slept with Anna even once in the time that we were together... despite having loved her.

The other little bit of irony being that most of this happened as I was under that pesky little vow.

Though I daresay I would've broken it with sour regrets had I been less clear in the head.

It persists even now... it's kind of bothersome. I even had a lady who must've been over 70 hit on me the other day. That... was a very odd experience. I'm glad when I meet people that don't just want to fuck my brains out... and it's funny because my closest friends, besides Seth and my Ottawa family, are my ex-girlfriends...

I'm pretty sure neither of the two that really mattered in my life want to open those old wounds again...

... and thank Moses.

By the way, everyone should see Chris Landreth's Ryan.

August 19, 2005

hiatussummer

On hiatus for a little over a week while I participate in a small family trip.

Cheers,
Johann

August 17, 2005

requiem

I feel as if I'm dead. Not as Dave says... not that I've lost hope.

It's that I don't care whether there is hope or no.

I've seen the worst of it all. I've seen my life go to shit in an instant, and since then I've been in a state that you could call apathy to all things... much as I act outwardly as if I really cared.

And now that facade is getting tiring and I'm slowly dropping that, too.

Working on something new, might just write it tomorrow...

Mozart's Requiem (me) says:
I'm trying to write a short story to get it out of my system what it feels like to be completely apathetic
Mozart's Requiem says:
but being that it's apathy, it's difficult.
A legionnaire (Camel in disrepair) says:
the character is apathetic or you as a writer trying to be apathetic?
Mozart's Requiem says:
the character.
A legionnaire (Camel in disrepair) says:
an anarachist or an anti-hero?
Mozart's Requiem says:
something like that. but without the energy. Someone so totally dead inside he cares not even if people start dropping dead around him.
Mozart's Requiem says:
the only way I can see doing that is if people actually did start dropping dead around him
A legionnaire (Camel in disrepair) says:
omg you should read some short stories by gabriel garcias marquez i forgot the name of it but it was about this guy whose twin died and its like he felt death and how it is like to be dead the description was so graphic and destrubing
Mozart's Requiem says:
alright, if you do remember the name let me know.
A legionnaire (Camel in disrepair) says:
aaaah it was that guy who wrote the book 100 years of solitude i think he got a nobel prize for it
A legionnaire (Camel in disrepair) says:
awesome stuff you should read it
Mozart's Requiem says:
kay
A legionnaire (Camel in disrepair) says:
but anyways whats your story line like?
Mozart's Requiem says:
so far nothing. I'm mulling over it. Either I can go metaphorically, and actually create an apocalyptic incident in which the character has no idea what's going on around him (first person, and only hints and shades at what's actually happening outside).... or there are other things I could do, I suppose.
A legionnaire (Camel in disrepair) says:
aaaah you could send it in the late 1970s in london the punk scene in the tradition of anarchy and defiance and then in the end the character realizes how this whole way of life is just as driven by the corporate scum bags as the lives of socially structured people, and how there is really no escape and nothing could truly defy them
Mozart's Requiem says:
could work
Mozart's Requiem says:
dunno... we'll see what happens... really have no direction for it just yet.
Mozart's Requiem says:
I wrote a short thing to see ho I'd like it to feel, but I was't happy with that.

August 16, 2005

leeleehong

?

Heh. Of course, I only joke. But as much as I once liked Leelee Sobieski as she showed a bit of promise (not much, granted, but she was hot, seemed capable... proven wrong, of course)... people really shouldn't knock L'Idole... the movie centralizes just as much around James Hong as it does around her.

And James Hong... in French...

That's cool.

Sure, the plot's very typical cheesy French film... certainly not the best. I'm not even sure who Samantha Lang *is*...

But like I was saying...

James Hong! In French!

For those of you who really REALLY like Leelee... she has a great body, but that doesn't make a good film. Hot... definately. Acting...

Not so good.

Though she played pretty well in Eyes Wide Shut. Pretty much because she didn't say a word. When she's not talking acting seems to increase in awesome.

Maybe that's why people can't talk and fake orgasms at the same time.

badbadmovies

Garage Days was disappointing. Especially from the guy that directed The Crow. (and Dark City, which I've yet to see, but hear good things about)

I guess he flopped already before 'I, Robot'. *shudder*

I've got an article to finish tomorrow for the paper, I might ask for an extension of a day to get some more quotes since I've been blind all week.

There were, however, good moments in that film, so I can't say it was totally miserable. A near-total flop though isn't worth watching...

Now I'm in the mood for some SLC Punk.

I'm fucked up, heh.

My friend's first day of school (she has to go back through a few years of school after being booted out of the States) in Germany starts right about now.

Thoughts and love are with her, as she's really nervous about it.

I'm going to watch a good movie to make up for the suckage. Dave suggested something, I might do that if I'm not too tired. If not, I'll just fall asleep to whatever is on.

Oh yes, I got new glasses. I am t3h 4w3s0m3. Yes, I only l33t1fy vowels cause I'm a dick like that.

August 15, 2005

nothingwrongwithme

Damn, Another week of awesome ended... back to the daily grind.

Except that the only real thing I have to do is drive my little bro to camp every day and work volunteer for the Charlatan... and since I love both driving and writing for the Charlatan...

Damn, life is good.

Back home for a while, had to come back, esepcially after that incident in Hull. You know what sucks more, is that my spares broke first thing this morning, so I've been wearing Shades all day, since my shades are prescription... my last pair of prescription eyewear I currently own.

Yes, even now, at 3 AM, I am wearing shades. Consequently, it is not very easy to type right now, so excuse any mistakes as I pretty much have my eyes closed and I'm only looking at the screen every minute or so to make sure my fingers aren't in the wrong place.

You know what's crazy? I started feeling like this when talking to my parents in the car today, my life is slowing DOWN.

I mean, not that it was all that fast even in the first year of Uni, but now it's just slowing DOWN. I mean,.. I'm guess I'm learning to chillax, but things are actually getting to the point where I'm getting serious about a lot of things.

I barely notice when someone cracks a good joke.

That's CRAZY.

Shucks to the 'learning to chillax' theory. Maybe it was after the whole dealy last year with the po-pos and all that I've just slowed down.

I miss just going crazy-go-nuts and driving around all night doing jack-all.

I actually go to a bed at night now. That's nuts, I mean I'm not... staying up to play video games with some friends, not out in a car, driving around aimlessly doing some sort of god-knows what... having an adventure in god-knows where...

Not on the wrong end of a handgun, either, which I suppose is a very good thing, since those accidental pumpins with silly people no longer happen... as they've been known to once or twice.

I'm trying to decide whether not this is a good thing. On one hand I miss my adventures and my old life.

On the other hand, I'm more settled... and maybe that's a good thing. Even if it isn't because I'm chillaxin'.

Maybe I need to think about it less, since most likely I'm just going through a small phase where I'm just going to relax, get my head straight, before I do wild and crazy-go-nuts stuff once again.

I do like to justify things... don't I?

I'm not even going to take a stab at what this means for me when I'm thinking about relationhips... since my mind has been circling around maybe leaving the long-term option open again... despite recent accusations (and some admissions) of sluttiness.

To be fair, I haven't slept with anyone in over a month. (Two? Maybe?)

But I said I wasn't going to go there. I don't let the inner-emo go out for many walks nowadays.

Might be the long hair. Reverting back to a chilled rocker... all I need now is a porch and a band to chill with.

And some keys. GOD I miss the keyboard. I bet I couldn't improv worth crap-all right now. And I'd put lots and lots of money on that bet... I haven't really touched the keys in maybe two or three years.

Three... I left NY three years ago.

Wow.

But I don't think I'll ever go back to them. I think, if anything, I will remain a singer, and only a singer. This dog's not learning any new tricks.

But I do have to regain my voice... maybe I'll practise with some people after I get back to Ottawa.

Anyway, these shades are buggin me out. I'm going to go and sleep for a few hours before I have to head out tomorrow. And hopefully to get some new glasses, cause having shades and only shades for another day would really, really realy suck.

By the way, to my friends in Ottawa, thanks for a good time. Sorry if we missed each other, but we've got a year to keep on seeing each other. =D

To new friends/acquaintances, nice meeting you, hope to be seeing more of you.

Cheers.

August 12, 2005

prankypranky

Ever try to weird out a prank caller?

August 11, 2005

wowzah

Wow... awkward. Very awkward.

August 09, 2005

whoobirthdays

Happy Birthday Leigh... 2 hours and 39 minutes late, but that's okay since I was at the party. =D


Anyway... misgivings about Hull pretty gone. Misgivings about the club I went to last time...

Well, FUCK THEM. They aren't worthy of my respect and sexiness. Bitches.

August 08, 2005

gettingout

So I did get out today, as I had wanted to. The apartment still smells vaguely of puke, I might scrub down the bathroom again, might be that. Can't be the carpet, not after the bubbles and boiling death treatment I gave it...

It's not bad though, since it's so faint I can only detect it because I'm really really sensitive to smells in my apartment (just in case something's burning or something)...

Biked a lot today. There is nothing like biking for 2 hours straight. I was pretty tired and on a biker's high most of the day.

As a result I wasn't much fun when I went out with Dave, Mike, Alex, and Hadas. But I was pretty content and happy all day.

I still am. But I'm also really tired. Going to hit the sack.

Sorry that this is just a summary of my day... normally don't like these types of blog posts, but the interesting stuff in my life is actually happening to me this week. It's a good thing.

Cheers.

August 07, 2005

criminalwasteland

I feel like a criminal when I have to pour out beers from people who couldn't finish their beers.

Especially beers that have a sip out of them and s'bout it. But there was only one of those, thank god.

partycleanup

So yes, I am now cleaning up my apartment.

Besides from the myriad of different beer bottles, cake-encrusted plates, ashes from the smoking on the balcony, and random garbage...

I have puke to clean up. Not my own, either... won't mention the name though, so 'less you were here, no one knows.

I'm crossing my fingers and hoping that the bathroom is clean now, I've gone over it twice with Fantastik... and once with Lysol...

And I'm waiting on my carpet to dry from the boiling water and detergent treatment I gave it...

And the vaccuum cleaner to dry out after I washed it out (it had been run over some wet stuff, so it was not functioning as it should have...)

I started 3 hours ago, and I'm almost done. Going to town on the air mattress (which got puke on it too) and I think it's clean now... going to double-check it by killing the germs that may be on it with a lysol scrubdown...

On the bright side, this means I have incentive to really really scrub down the place.

It's a gorgeous day out though, I really would like to get out after I'm done here.

R.I.P. Ibrahim Ferrer, 1927-2005

August 06, 2005

childhoodblues

Trying to catch a bit more shut-eye... my computer finished downloading The Snowman... a classic from my childhood.

If you recognize this, mad props to you.

snowman.jpg

I think I will buy it, I would really like a copy.

nopartynocry

Wow, I get solitude time.

Not exactly what I'm looking for, but I enjoy it ridiculously nonetheless, which is kind of weird.

I had invited people over last night as a spur of the moment thing (suggestion from someone else, I believe it was Hadas) and most people said they'd be cool with that.

But then we got busted this morning with the mum thing (busted by parents in college, who would've thought) and things kind of went to hell.

And Hadas messaged me a bit back wondering who was coming.

As far as I can see, no one, given that Hadas and Martin are the only ones to have gotten back to me and I have told them that nothing was really going on, but I would call them if something broke loose.

It's still early, the night's still young.

I think I shall spend this time playing video games.

Yes, Mister Jack Thompson... yes. I will be KILLING PEOPLE.

Oh yes, Scott Ramsoomair e-mailed me back about the whole Jack Thompson thing. That makes me happy, he makes a damned fine comic.

catchinguponthenews

Well now that Seth and Lauren are gone I had to catch up on several days worth of news.

Along the theme which I rant upon often enough... how there are no heroes anymore... Smokey Smith, the last VC (Victoria Cross) awardee died.

*sad*

As far as political news I tend to keep up to date on that no matter who's here, so I didn't miss much.

Linky to the article on Smokey Smith.

And of course... Proof that Jack Thompson is just like every other nitwit, fights with no honour whatsoever, and can't admit to the fact that he should quit being dumb altogether.

By the way, way to use the English language properly, Jackoboy. Maybe you should crawl back into the little cave you came from, idiot.

God... I hate it when people in the news are too stupid to spell properly. It's not like you're saving any time by spelling it incorrectly or using improper grammar... especially when you tack extra letters to things and use the wrong tenses...

*shudder*

This guy actually WON? He sounds like the ditzy blonde girl of the legal world. No, I'm not referring to that atrocious movie, Legally Blonde... but it's a fair comparison.

sethandlaureninottawa

My best friend, Seth, and his girlfriend, Lauren, came up to visit me this fine week... it was soup-herb.

They arrived late Tuesday night (or should I say... Wednesday morning? I have always referred to it as night) and went to bed pretty much as soon as they got here... it was probably a hell of a drive.

The next morning, I got around to my habit as of late to wake up bright and early in the silly morning. So... I hung around, did stuff, till they woke, then we hung out for a bit. My mum was still in town, so we went out to Clair De Lune in the Market (unless I'm getting my order of events wrong, which is quite possible) and had French food (I footed the bill, I'll explain later).

It, as is usual there, soup-herb. Especially so since the soup, a vichyssoise, was just that. =) Expensive, but worth the shelling out of le dough.

We walked around the Market a bit, and spotted the KINKI Asian fusion restaurant.

Let me tell you... we wanted to go back there, and fast.

Anyway, it was a pretty uneventful day, outside of my mum leaving, the cable guy coming (whilst we were in the middle of drinking)... and yeah, lots of drinking.

If you don't know Seth or myself... then you haven't really just drank because you're so glad to see someone again. Unless you're Irish. Or Russian. Or German. Then you'd be excused from this horrid generalization that I'm making out of false pride...

Lots of beers. Lots of vodka. It was a good night for just chillin..

They slept in my bedroom (since I wasn't going to need a comfortable bed as much as they would... =D) and I slept on the air mattress I have out in the living area...

Next day (Thursday if you're keeping track), we hit the town after a while... we first chilled and had noodles (again, I woke absurdly early) and walked down to the Market again for dinner, passing the sights (the locks, Parliament Hill) etc... and went shopping for Lauren.

Now, I bet that last part sounds bad. Lauren certainly seemed to think so... but it totally wasn't. Having gone shopping with a large number of people, she is by far not bad at all.

Besides, she looked good in that dress. =)

While I was waiting, just a note, I tried to call someone and managed to call Emily instead. Then called back to Emily to apologize for not realizing I had called the wrong number... but I got to talk to Emily which is totally cool.

Kinki... was great. The food was great (if not very expensive, especially by Toronto standards... by Ottawa Market standards it wasn't, really... the Asian fusion thing sells and it's a yuppie place) and we had Seth (who, despite being ridiculously hot, is also ridiculously shy at picking up) hit on the waitress. He almost got a number, unsurprisingly... but it was hilarious to watch his initial timidity until he got into his 'game'...

Too bad the waitress (I'd give you her name but then people here in Ottawa might go bother her about it) was already seeing someone.

So with that dare down, we made a bet that (since we planned to go to Hull later in the evening and go clubbing) Seth would get 5 or more numbers at the club... upon which I was betting upwards (shot down by his own girlfriend, I'm telling ya, she was bloody fucking cool) because I was going to wingman him.

Hull didn't happen. We met up with Jackdude, and he ate while we talked (probably freaked him out with all the dating and gay-talk, which is standard among some of my friends, sorry dudeman!) and we went back to the apartment (during which time Jackdude went to go see if he could get back into his place, since he was locked out) and planned to shower and go to Hull.

Well, we showered, all right. Then they disappeared into the bedroom, and I sat for a bit reading Siddhartha again... but when I didn't hear the characteristic noises of making out, I figured they were asleep.

We were all tired out, so I went to bed.

I heard from Seth later that (despite really needing to sleep) he made an attempt to get up and check in on me to see if I still wanted to hit the clubs, and I had already hit the sack... I had waited a while, but evidently not long enough.

So yeah, whatevs. We woke up the next morning, (Friday) which seems like this morning to me (since I haven't had any real meaningful sleep) and hung out pretty much the whole day, watched some movies (Kung Fu Hustle, a personal fave, and Supersize Me, which, while not applying to many of the young Canadians I know, still gives me the hibbly-jibblies because of my time in the States... I knew that it was sooo true.

*sigh*

Then we went out, with a ton of booze, and walked to a bus to get to Dave's party. The plan was to go to Hull after we hit it up for a while.

The Good People party was goodness. Dave announced something (which I shall not repeat for those who don't know it, maybe it was intended that way) which I kind of expected after I knew there was to be an announcement...

Hookahs rock.

Anyway, so we left for Le Bop in Hull.

Not my favourite place, but no where else I can club. Getting into bars is easy, clubs... not so much. The guys there were all fucking hounds. I went there to dance, and one of them got all up in my face for dancing too hardcore and distracting attention from the real stalking weirdos in the bar.

Believe me, I didn't want to start shit. My glasses were clipped on my shirt and I knew I could take him. He shoved me.

I didn't do shit. I went out, cooled down (the dude may have had friends, but I can fight, my friends... and Seth could be one mean motherfucker... the guy's fast and he's built) but I had lost my glasses in the shove.

Fucker. Those were $300 rims. Without the lenses.

Bail might've costed more though, so whatever. I was sooo tempted to turn that dance floor into a blood-spraying mosh pit. A real one. With much hurting.

But I cooled off outside, realized my spares were at Dave's in my backpack, so I went back in, gave Seth my keys, told him to pick me up in the morn, and headed off.

You got a fucking problem when you can't compete for women's attention (which, I might add, I was NOT trying to do, since my dancing usually is SOLO and anyone who tries to dance with me... unless I'm in a pick-up mood... learns pretty fucking fast) by at least challenging a guy to a dance-off but instead trying to start a fight. "Step off, go over there, you're drawing attention away from other people." *shove*

LAME.

If you're reading this, fucknut, maybe you should reconsider your approach. Lucky you didn't meet me in my violent days... and even then, you weren't worth the shit you were made of. Learn to respect other people (especially potential dates!) instead of treating them like meat, PLEASE.

And respect the dance, bitch.

Lemme tell ya, the cabbie on the ride out was hilarious. So great, in fact, that despite his inferior knowledge of anything outside of Hull, I tipped him $10 just for his company and getting me to glasses so I could fucking see.

Glasses which, I might add, I am wearing right now.

By the way, the people in that bar HOUNDED after Lauren and abused Seth (since he wore flipflops, having nothing else) by stepping on his feet and bumping him... for dancing with the hottest girl in the club.

Lesson learned (AGAIN): Don't fucking go to Hull, fucking skeezy shitbags.

Getting back to the Good People Party was cool. More booze (free booze, or my booze... either way) though a lot of people had left, pretty much just Dave's non-Humanities friends left.

I didn't feel all too left out, they're good people. After all, that was the point of the party, no?

Morning kinda sucked... this morning, actually, when his mum busted him for having a party, and we had to scramble to clean out the place and fleeeeee.

Luckily Seth and Lauren were already on their way, so I cleared out last after helping, but pretty damned fast, I tell ya.

Seth and Lauren took me back here, got some directions after getting some breakfast (and a few burned CDs from my collection, operatic goth metal stuff like Nightwish and The Gathering...

So yeah, good times.

So to explain about why I footed the bill, including the one at Kinkis... Seth and I have a great system, being the best of friends, where money is no object between us. I could owe him thousands and not know it, and so inversely... it got so convoluted to a point that we just decided to call "fuck it" and just pay for each other. So since he had no CDN, the way it works is he pays for me while I'm in NY again.

Which will be bloody damned soon, I assure you.

Now... to give props where props are due... first, to Seth and Lauren, for visiting and being cool people. To my mum, for helping me move in. To Dave, for probably taking the heat for the party real bad right now and having us there. To Martin for bringing a Hookah and shisha... And last but definately not fucking least, to Jackdude, an awesome friend, because without him I wouldn't have assembled furniture in my place and he helped a lot with moving in... rock fucking on.

August 05, 2005

newsworthreporting

You may remember that I made a post about Banksy a while back and the great stuff he pulled in NYC...

Apparently he's hit up the West Bank... to the consternation of Isreali troops, of course.

banksywall.jpg

Admirable, and superawesome.

He certainly knows how to use his paint. *grins*

On Banksy's website, he posted a new Treasure Hunt which he's done before at his other exhibits... take a look, especially if you're in the West Bank area, and don't mind having guns pointed your way as you approach the wall.

Or if you're in the IDF... but that would just be weird.

Cheers.

Image taken from bbc.co.uk

August 04, 2005

rockmonkeys

I moved in. Head kinda hurting from booze last night, so I won't talk much about moving in till later.

Here is a picture I doodled on the WACOM tablet. Modelled after a photo that a friend sent me of themself.

Not very much like the photo, really, but creative liberties can be taken occasionally.
rockmonkeys.jpg