oneofthesedays
Been thinking a lot about kids... and watching Jersey Girl didn't help any. Though it did amaze me, as with Chasing Amy, to find Affleck actually acting well.
Affleck doing good comedic drama? Whaaaaa?
But yeah. I've been thinking about kids. It happens every so often when I think about life down the way.
Sure, I'm not a big fan of kids. They get loud, annoying, on my nerves... at least, most of them. And sure, I've still got a lot of life to live, and I'll be damned if I have kids in the near future.
Doesn't mean I don't want one of my own somewhere down the road.
Guess I'm just doing my part in the prolonging of the human race.
It's funny how things change on me. Not three years ago, I wanted to die beofre I was twenty. It was almost a third of my life away. I'm approaching that now... another year and a half and I'll be there.
Now I'm just another guy, living another life, indulging in another set of ugly vices, waiting for some sort of enlightenment, thinking about having kids someday.
As if I'm even ready to settle down yet. I haven't had a relationship that's lasted more than seven months. It's sad too, I don't know if I could now see myself together with her again, much as I do love her, much less have kids.
I don't know why this urge is kicking in now. it's not like I've seen all that much. I can count the people I've slept with almost on one hand. People I've dated for more than a week (I don't count short flings...) on all my digits (yes, toes too). I really haven't found anyone that I'd see that with... and I've still got a lot of life to live.
God, I'm pathetic.
I'd have to put my debaucherous lifestyle in check, that's for sure.
*sigh* I don't know what it is that's bringing this up... but it's starting to really bug me. I guess it's a natural instinct...
I just wish I didn't have to think about it. Still got a long life to live.
Gotta call _____ sometime and make things up to her. At least that's one thing on my mind that I know how to settle... kinda. As long as it turns out without either one of us flipping out all too much.
P.S. And I changed my mind about the Christian Bale entry. Kevin Smith is way cooler than Kurt Wimmer anyway... despite Equilibrium being a sweet movie.